Christmas, etc.

My goodness it’s been a long time since I visited.

I’ve done a few things in my absence. I started up a youtube channel: DermottLMc , which I have been using to make vlogs and stuff of that nature. Stuff is such an inane word. 

Had a great Christmas with various branches of my family. We stayed at Grammy and Grampy’s for the actual holiday. Time has no meaning at their house. I’m not sure what it is. I keep a fairly ‘normal’ schedule, but the first night there I was up till two and slept till almost eleven. Some people out there may think that is great, but it’s very unusual for me. I’m a morning person. It just sort of happened like that, the whole time. I don’t know. Also made a fantastic sleeping cave out of a table, pillows and blankets. Yay.

After the 25th we all headed to Reno to visit Dad’s parents. It was alright. I always get a bit of altitude sickness there. By the second morning I was just feeling nauseous and tired.

Now I am home and awaiting the new year with interest. I’m still not sure who all I’m going to spend midnight with, but I know they will be the right people whoever.

My cat likes salad. He wasn’t feeling good, so I gave him some lettuce (I knew previously that he liked it). Then he followed me all over the house meowing until I got him more. He ate quite a bit of it. Today he wanted more. It doesn’t make him sick or anything. (As opposed to meat, which does.) My little furble.

These things never have a point. I’m just bleeding out my thoughts. I’ll never be internet famous.
Anyway, good afternoon.

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november

I haven’t written anything most of this month. I’ve been feeling really stretched by end-of-the-semester projects and work and everything. A lot did happen though.

• Turned 20
• Went to Six Flags
• Saw Breaking Dawn at midnight despite my total lack of interest
• Kaitlyn came back for Thanksgiving
• Joined the Astronomy club unofficially, because apparently they like me and want me to come on trips with them
• Unmentionable things that are blowing my mind
• Bought two dresses in a month, which beats my lifetime record. I think that’s more than I usually buy in five years.

Anyway, I could keep listing ridiculous things. But yeah. I’m ready for the end of December to come and the restoration of peace to begin. I don’t know how this year is going to end. It’s only November 26th and I’m already looking for it.

Come on, live in the moment self. Stop it. Guh.

teachingliteracy:

by heleneruyter

I decided to be Spock for halloween this year. It was really fun, actually. A week before I started working on the process of covering one’s eyebrows, since that can be a bit hard. Then I drew on some new ones, donned latex ears and a black wig and voila. Mr. Spock. I think Dad was probably the most excited about it. X) Trekkie that he is.

My third round of tests just went by. I’m fairly sure I aced them. Today I’ll get my math test back to find out, and on Monday I’ll get astronomy. I already got Enviro Science. Besides its distinct lack of English courses, I think this had been my most enjoyable semester. Not so much because of the classes, per se, but the teachers are all great.

Oh, which reminds me to go figure out next semester’s class schedule. Oops.

Yes Peter, sometimes I feel that way too.

Because my cat is awesome. :D Isn’t he just a cute ball of fluff?

A few interesting things

Apparently my cousins on a whole think I’m hot. I think this is really funny. I don’t really know most of them, but their Dads have been reporting back that they have interesting things to say about my pictures. X) Life is strange and comical. Luckily I don’t live in Alabama.

Second, I live near a livestock and agriculture center. What this means is that at certain times of the year, the population of files swells ridiculously. This huge fly has been bouncing around knocking into my windows and mirrors for like two days now. My cats just sit there uselessly and watch it. >< I need a fly vaporizer.

Anyway, those are my comments for today.

University of the Pacific

On Saturday I went to a preview day for UoP. I’m rather hoping to attend. It was an awesome day, and a really cool school. Not to mention they have a Harry Potter fan club, played quidditch on the lawn and it looks like Hogwarts.


They had lots of different tours and current students around to talk to. They held workshops/information sessions through the morning and early afternoon. Everyone there seemed very friendly and… strong? I don’t know, they were all obviously leader-types, which was nice.

This is the view out from the front of the big library:



All the buildings are brick/stone. It’s kind of expensive, as a private school, but they have a lot of financial help for people that need it. Like me, hahahaaah.

I guess that’s all I really have to record about that. I want to get in, but I’m trying not to get my hopes up. I’m pretty good at it. I don’t like being let down.

Whew. Anyway.

Robin Hobb Quote

“Tomorrow,” he told me gravely. “We shall be ourselves again. The Fool and the Bastard. Or the White Prophet and the Catalyst, if you will. We will have to take up those lives, as little as we care for them, and fulfil all fate has decreed for us. But for here, for now, just between us, and for no other reason save I am me and you are you, I tell you this. I am glad, glad that you are alive. To see you take breath puts the breath back in my lungs. If there must be another my fate is tied around, I am glad it is you.”

The Sun

Today my lab group and I had to view the sun. Every since I heard we were going to do this I was excited! Pictures of the sun are always so surreal and beautiful. It didn’t disappoint. There were a good number of large solar storms and sunspots that we could see. Our professor is hilarious, he loves it so much. Although he was teaching at the time he kept walking out of his physics class to look through our telescope, haha.

First we used a Dobsonian with a solar filter, it looked mostly like this:



Then our teacher got out a special solar telescope, and it looked more like this:



There was a little less detail on the surface with what we were looking through, but it was awesome all the same. It’s such an incredible piece of the system.

I haven’t had much interesting to say lately. So here’s how morning looks at my house.

It’s like a cat sitcom poster.  Oy. I’m gonna be an old cat lady. ><

auditions

Well…. I did it! I auditioned for the Glee Project. I wasn’t entirely happy with the whole thing because my computer’s mic creates some distortion, but… I can’t do anything about that. So I guess I just live with it. I’m excited to see if this leads anywhere, but I’m also very aware that it will be months before I hear anything, if I hear anything. Mm.

Tomorrow morning early I am going with dad to fill in for Scott at a biker rally. I’m not looking forward to the less-sleep. But a bacon-egg-and-cheese biscuit in the morning might make me a little more happy. When it’s that early, I don’t always care that I’m eating crap, so long as it is made of things that taste really good. X)

I’m going to bed. Goodnight computer, internet, and world.

There's a big world out there

I’m trying to decide whether or not I should audition for the glee project. I suppose it’s an audition for an audition for an audition…. So I shouldn’t put this much thought into the whole thing. I should just do it and see what happens. But I’m scared of getting half-way there and failing and then having to come back to the “plan” I screwed up by going in the first place. There are too many words in most of these sentences. Anyway.

I always tell myself a story before I go to sleep. Sometimes if I’m lucky the story bleeds into my dreams. I’m usually not myself, in my dreams.  I can be a boy, or an androgyne, or some foreign ethnicity or a race that doesn’t exist at all. My dreams are one of my favorite places, actually. It’s way easier to be the hero in dreams.

One last thing: There is this person that reoccurs in my nighttime adventures. I don’t know what he/she looks like. They switch genders and clothes a lot, but when this person is there I always know it. They’re like my closest friend, and I always feel safe. My protector, sort of. The kind of feelings you get when you’re with someone you’ve known forever, and silence is okay and you know in a glance what the other person is thinking. It’s great. But I haven’t seen them in a while. I don’t know why.

dreams

…Had some weird dreams last night. I went to bed feeling pretty good, and somehow my brain translated that into:

• Deep-scuba and running out of air.
• Becoming a teen mom (Read: Horror.)
• Getting kicked out of the house.

These were all separate dreams. I don’t know what to do with them. Needless to say I feel a little crappy this morning.

Just experienced my first college ungrad interview.

Don’t know how I really feel about that. But finishing was definitely good. It’s validating to hear someone say you belong.


It was over the phone and I still cried. Jeez. Who’s the emotional one?

Professor Grandpa

…as I call my environmental science teacher, has assigned two essays and has given no due date. This would be exciting, except that I am a procrastinator, and therefore desperately require due dates.



Guess what progress I have made on starting these? Yep. I think you’ve got it.

Hair color?

I’m going to go get my hair fixed today. But I haven’t actually decided what color. Hm. I’m between an Emma Stone-esque red or my natural dirty blonde. Really can’t decide. I do have a pink undertone to my skin, so I’m wary of the blonde. … But I was born with it on my head, so it can’t be too terrible. Ugh. Help, internet?


I’ve sufficiently finished my homework for the week. All except an essay for environmental science. It’s really hard to start because he hasn’t given a deadline, and I’m a procrastinator.

What else. I’ve decided to start wearing what I want to wear and giving less of a care about what is…fashionable and/or normal.

That was a whole bunch of nothing but it’s still morning. Life hasn’t happened yet today.

fyeahenglishmajorarmadillo:

CRY. 

(If anyone doesn’t recognise this, it’s Borders.) 

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This is the most perfectly sad photograph…

-Olive
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The bookstore 15 minutes from my house closed it’s doors forever earlier this week. I’m sad.

Write hard and clear about what hurts.

Write hard and clear about what hurts.
Ernest Hemingway  (via sleepingtigers)

nerdom

Firstly I am no longer sick. Yay!

On to the point of this entry. I suppose, being nearly 20, that the world should tell me it’s time to grow up a bit. Hah.

I got my welcome email yesterday. Observe:



Summarily I ventured forth tenuously into the world of Pottermore. Very fun, full of people that I understand. After a few chapters, it came time to be sorted. And. Well.

I was feeling a bit nervous. I’ve always been a self-proclaimed Slytherin. If I got stuck in Hufflepuff I think I would die of embarrassment. The questions were hard to gauge mostly, but in the end:



Today as I wake a proud Slytherin student, I’m allowing myself to bask in childhood for a bit. It’s a nice little pick-me-up from all that real world homework I have. >< Have a nice Sunday.

smile

still sick.

But I dreamt last night that an old friend lived down the street again. We wore plaid. She had Zebra and cats in her backyard. We talked about our old characters and then I jumped the fence to go home. She ran after be with a bucket of whip cream or something. Managed to splash it all over me in front of a glass-front pancake shop. Then we broke into song and dance and got an ovation from the pancake-goers. It was a nice dream.

cold attack

I have one of those colds where if you sit or lay down your nose gets blocked for no reason. I kept waking up last night. Like every two hours. It’s only the second week, universe. Come oon.

In other news, I think I will watch Apocalypto soon. And hopefully today my poetry textbooks will come. I still don’t know if I’m going to keep the class, but I’m interested in the books anyway.

I’m going to go puddle around for two hours before school.

first week

was busy. Running around, finding classes, getting the feel for new professors. They’re all a little weird. Right now I call them: The General, John Locke, Dane Cook, and Grandpa Hippie.

Went kayaking on the ocean for the first time over the weekend. It’s not so fun. The rolling of the oceans is definitely more noticeable in smaller boats. Miserable.

Now I’m sitting and watching Star Wars II. For this reason alone:

boys

Boys and their flirting. You meet someone and they are good friend-material. They obviously think they have more potential. You tell them you’re not interested. What do they do?


Ignore all the things!

Sigh. I don’t want to be mean. But what am I supposed to do? It’s awkward.

I made banana bread today. Since you know next to nothing about me:  B.B. is my favorite. I make it all the time. It’s hard to not eat it all.

Hopefully I’ll have something more interesting to say tomorrow.

Last Week

Meaning, of course, that I only have one week left of summer. Things are coming to a close. A new lifestyle approaches. Ah, well.

I’m excited.

In about two hours an old friend is coming over. I’ve mostly parted ways with this person. Although we get along well, but too much time together and I feel like I’m becoming negative, or less…what I’m supposed to be. They have a strong influence about them.

I really feel kind of guilty about it—but I need to spend more time with the people who challenge me to be better, or lift me up, instead of this. I have to keep reminding myself of that.

So we’re gonna watch a tv show. They’ve been gone all summer.

I don’t really know what else to say about that.

goodbyes

I went to sushi with my best friend today. She’s leaving in the morning for another year of college. I’m not good at reaching out. We always talk less when she’s gone. I’m sort of dreading it.

Tonight Dad is surprising Mom with a hotel and play in Sonora. It’s pretty cute, he was so excited. He forgot to plan for things like clothes and toiletries, but I helped him smuggle them out today. I hope they have a good time.

I’m gonna go eat some ice cream.

Is it really that bad if someone sees who you are? Why is it humans have a problem with letting someone else see that they are human?
Joseph Gogler

early morning

I woke up fairly early this morning (5:30) for no reason whatsoever. But my mind was wide awake so I gave up on trying to go back to sleep.

A muted sadness has been weighing me down. I think it has to do with a lack of activity, or something. I feel like my passion has diminished. Luckily, the school year is about to start.

Another good thing: Mom came in my room this morning and told me how proud of me she was—something I’ve been needing to hear.

I read Psalm 37 before the sun came up.

Woke up early after not much sleep today. I’m still sick, third week going. Mom texted me around seven thirty and said that as soon as she was dressed she was taking me to the doctor. I guess she heard me coughing from across the house.

Went to the doctor for three hours, passed out, had blood drawn, mrr mrr mrr, eventually told I have a terrible virus and just sort of need to wait it out. They gave me more, stronger medication though so that’s a yay.

Came home and did a lot of nothing. Almost fell asleep and witnessed the longest half hour of my life thus far. (In which I also did nothing, it just took forever to pass.) I’m so tired of coughing.

Anyway, if anyone besides me ever happens to read this I apologize for that boring bit of drivel.


I cannot wait for school to be over. School utterly destroys my creative drive and will to write. Or read. Ugh. Summer, you cannot arrive soon enough.


Supernatural does not run through summer. ;_;  [/one complaint]

I met a deaf boy at school

He saw me signing and thought I was deaf. When I was about to leave, he came up and asked me if I was deaf. I told him no. Tosha was with me, and he turned and asked her the same. Of course she said no also.

We tried to talk to him. But after saying hi, he just turned around and walked away. I felt kind of sad, actually. I think he was just looking for people like himself. I sort of wished I was. He looked nice.

Mom and I are getting pictures taken

But right now, it’s raaiiinninnnng! Noooo. ;_;

Well hopefully that will all clear up.

Also, I woke up this morning with a strong urge to spout my Slytherin pride. I need to find a good venue still.

And lastly, my brain decided to dream me up a horror movie. Oddly enough I wasn’t too scared in the dream, but I definitely was recognizing stuff that would be scary. It was…odd. All about this big old house that looked old-mansion on the outside, but was in fact hollow on the inside. I don’t know what I’m doing.

P.S. Night before last my dream was about Lucius Malfoy, and I must have been Snape, and it was our yooung days. Tell me why, I always think they were friends in my dreams? I honestly wanted to help him. Then I woke up, and was like, ugh.

Re-reading this whole ramble, I can tell I’m pretty tired. Off to school!