There's a big world out there

I’m trying to decide whether or not I should audition for the glee project. I suppose it’s an audition for an audition for an audition…. So I shouldn’t put this much thought into the whole thing. I should just do it and see what happens. But I’m scared of getting half-way there and failing and then having to come back to the “plan” I screwed up by going in the first place. There are too many words in most of these sentences. Anyway.

I always tell myself a story before I go to sleep. Sometimes if I’m lucky the story bleeds into my dreams. I’m usually not myself, in my dreams.  I can be a boy, or an androgyne, or some foreign ethnicity or a race that doesn’t exist at all. My dreams are one of my favorite places, actually. It’s way easier to be the hero in dreams.

One last thing: There is this person that reoccurs in my nighttime adventures. I don’t know what he/she looks like. They switch genders and clothes a lot, but when this person is there I always know it. They’re like my closest friend, and I always feel safe. My protector, sort of. The kind of feelings you get when you’re with someone you’ve known forever, and silence is okay and you know in a glance what the other person is thinking. It’s great. But I haven’t seen them in a while. I don’t know why. Continue reading →

dreams

…Had some weird dreams last night. I went to bed feeling pretty good, and somehow my brain translated that into:

• Deep-scuba and running out of air.
• Becoming a teen mom (Read: Horror.)
• Getting kicked out of the house.

These were all separate dreams. I don’t know what to do with them. Needless to say I feel a little crappy this morning. Continue reading →

smile

still sick.

But I dreamt last night that an old friend lived down the street again. We wore plaid. She had Zebra and cats in her backyard. We talked about our old characters and then I jumped the fence to go home. She ran after be with a bucket of whip cream or something. Managed to splash it all over me in front of a glass-front pancake shop. Then we broke into song and dance and got an ovation from the pancake-goers. It was a nice dream. Continue reading →

Mom and I are getting pictures taken

But right now, it’s raaiiinninnnng! Noooo. ;_;

Well hopefully that will all clear up.

Also, I woke up this morning with a strong urge to spout my Slytherin pride. I need to find a good venue still.

And lastly, my brain decided to dream me up a horror movie. Oddly enough I wasn’t too scared in the dream, but I definitely was recognizing stuff that would be scary. It was…odd. All about this big old house that looked old-mansion on the outside, but was in fact hollow on the inside. I don’t know what I’m doing.

P.S. Night before last my dream was about Lucius Malfoy, and I must have been Snape, and it was our yooung days. Tell me why, I always think they were friends in my dreams? I honestly wanted to help him. Then I woke up, and was like, ugh.

Re-reading this whole ramble, I can tell I’m pretty tired. Off to school! Continue reading →