auditions

Well…. I did it! I auditioned for the Glee Project. I wasn’t entirely happy with the whole thing because my computer’s mic creates some distortion, but… I can’t do anything about that. So I guess I just live with it. I’m excited to see if this leads anywhere, but I’m also very aware that it will be months before I hear anything, if I hear anything. Mm.

Tomorrow morning early I am going with dad to fill in for Scott at a biker rally. I’m not looking forward to the less-sleep. But a bacon-egg-and-cheese biscuit in the morning might make me a little more happy. When it’s that early, I don’t always care that I’m eating crap, so long as it is made of things that taste really good. X)

I’m going to bed. Goodnight computer, internet, and world. Continue reading →

There's a big world out there

I’m trying to decide whether or not I should audition for the glee project. I suppose it’s an audition for an audition for an audition…. So I shouldn’t put this much thought into the whole thing. I should just do it and see what happens. But I’m scared of getting half-way there and failing and then having to come back to the “plan” I screwed up by going in the first place. There are too many words in most of these sentences. Anyway.

I always tell myself a story before I go to sleep. Sometimes if I’m lucky the story bleeds into my dreams. I’m usually not myself, in my dreams.  I can be a boy, or an androgyne, or some foreign ethnicity or a race that doesn’t exist at all. My dreams are one of my favorite places, actually. It’s way easier to be the hero in dreams.

One last thing: There is this person that reoccurs in my nighttime adventures. I don’t know what he/she looks like. They switch genders and clothes a lot, but when this person is there I always know it. They’re like my closest friend, and I always feel safe. My protector, sort of. The kind of feelings you get when you’re with someone you’ve known forever, and silence is okay and you know in a glance what the other person is thinking. It’s great. But I haven’t seen them in a while. I don’t know why. Continue reading →

dreams

…Had some weird dreams last night. I went to bed feeling pretty good, and somehow my brain translated that into:

• Deep-scuba and running out of air.
• Becoming a teen mom (Read: Horror.)
• Getting kicked out of the house.

These were all separate dreams. I don’t know what to do with them. Needless to say I feel a little crappy this morning. Continue reading →

Just experienced my first college ungrad interview.

Don’t know how I really feel about that. But finishing was definitely good. It’s validating to hear someone say you belong.


It was over the phone and I still cried. Jeez. Who’s the emotional one? Continue reading →

Professor Grandpa

…as I call my environmental science teacher, has assigned two essays and has given no due date. This would be exciting, except that I am a procrastinator, and therefore desperately require due dates.



Guess what progress I have made on starting these? Yep. I think you’ve got it. Continue reading →